Reminiscing.

I've been in a ... remembering mood, so to speak. I don't know why, but I got the sudden urge to look through my old journals (I've had two other ones before and the one now - which is very close to being done) and it's a wonder how much I've changed, my friends, my family... All sorts of things. (Also, amusing how badly I used to spell or speak... Not that I've improved much. *coughs*) It's also amazing how PERSONAL I made them... The one I have now isn't... extremely personal. I mean, here and there, I write about things that I REALLY care about. But not a lot. In the last one, almost EVERY POST was about something important. So what does that say about me? That I hid more of myself nowadays or deny things to the point that I won't even talk about it in a journal kept to my eyes only? I don't know. Just a thing I was thinking about.

On another note, my grandmother's coming back tomorrow from the Philippines. Was she REALLY gone a month? Because it does not feel like that at all. Damn. On the one side, I'm happy she's coming back... Definitely a bit more food, and no more of me having to clean. *coughs* But on the other hand, she acts so.... crabby sometimes that it bothers me. And she criticizes EVERYONE to herself. Out Loud. Including me, right in FRONT of me. ~_~;; It bothers the crap out of me... Because, I have to STRUGGLE not to argue back. *sigh*

On a HAPPIER note, got to see the Rockefellar Tree Lighting ceremony yesterday. IN person. Which, I might add, hurt like hell because me and a friend were out there for FOUR hours. Ouch. My legs are still sore from the standing and lame sitting I went through from that time. But it WAS pretty... And one of those things you've got to experience. I am pissed at one thing. Of ALL the singers to sing my favorite Christmas song, "White Christmas", it HAD to be Taylor Hicks. And he just HAD to screw with it. Damn.

Reminiscing.

I've been in a ... remembering mood, so to speak. I don't know why, but I got the sudden urge to look through my old journals (I've had two other ones before and the one now - which is very close to being done) and it's a wonder how much I've changed, my friends, my family... All sorts of things. (Also, amusing how badly I used to spell or speak... Not that I've improved much. *coughs*) It's also amazing how PERSONAL I made them... The one I have now isn't... extremely personal. I mean, here and there, I write about things that I REALLY care about. But not a lot. In the last one, almost EVERY POST was about something important. So what does that say about me? That I hid more of myself nowadays or deny things to the point that I won't even talk about it in a journal kept to my eyes only? I don't know. Just a thing I was thinking about.

On another note, my grandmother's coming back tomorrow from the Philippines. Was she REALLY gone a month? Because it does not feel like that at all. Damn. On the one side, I'm happy she's coming back... Definitely a bit more food, and no more of me having to clean. *coughs* But on the other hand, she acts so.... crabby sometimes that it bothers me. And she criticizes EVERYONE to herself. Out Loud. Including me, right in FRONT of me. ~_~;; It bothers the crap out of me... Because, I have to STRUGGLE not to argue back. *sigh*

On a HAPPIER note, got to see the Rockefellar Tree Lighting ceremony yesterday. IN person. Which, I might add, hurt like hell because me and a friend were out there for FOUR hours. Ouch. My legs are still sore from the standing and lame sitting I went through from that time. But it WAS pretty... And one of those things you've got to experience. I am pissed at one thing. Of ALL the singers to sing my favorite Christmas song, "White Christmas", it HAD to be Taylor Hicks. And he just HAD to screw with it. Damn.