Mental Meltdown?

I think I'm having a bit of a meltdown. I don't know what it was about today, but twice (in the last 20 minutes) I have felt like spontaneously crying and I don't even know why. ...Okay, I kinda do. But it's not like today was uber stressful. Hell, my classes aren't all that crazy. ...Well, half of them. I only take four classes. But still. I'm always so exhausted. Although I do think that's the lack of sleep talking. *sighs* I don't remember the last time I got a decent eight hours sleep. My body's so used to four (which I might add is not my fault) that even on days when I can sleep more than four hours, it gives me only six. It's just... I'm so exhausted! Mentally and physically. And today, almost every little thing irritated me.

Calculus is tough. We all know this. I'm taking math as a major. Frig. I should be handle this. But when my professor gives an obscene amount of homework to in only one week. I think there's just a limit to how much one can do! In the next two days, I have about 30 pages of just PROBLEMS to do. And then I have a test the next Tuesday. And the tuesday after that. And then my FINAL is the tuesday after that. So in three weeks, I have three Calculus tests. And that doesn't even involve papers for my other classes. Yes, I know I have it much easier than some of the other schedules out there. But I need to whine. And I think after that, I'll be able to feel better... At least a little.

And then my parents don't make it any easier. I'm the one who can talk. So that apparently means I have to do every miscellaneous little task. I know they work. They both work so hard for me and my siblings and I know this. And I want to make it up to them in whatever way is possible. But I am just so tired of doing things that they could do themselves if they weren't so frigging lazy! I'm sorry, but I know your legs work. You can go down the stairs to grab your own bag! And yes, I know you're tired from work. But after you clock in those 8 to 4 hours, you can forget about work and go home and relax. I'm sure my older sister (WHO IS ALMOST 30, I SHOULD ADD) can take care of the house work just as well as you can. So just MAKE her and I think you could get more work. But for school. It's almost like it's 24/7. I know they haven't been in school for a while now, but seriously. Just because I'm not in class does not mean I'm not working on school stuff. After classes, there's homework and readings and papers and projects and I just want to break down and start crying now.

I hate that I'm acting so whiny. Because really, there's nothing to whine about. But today was tiring and I'm exhausted and I just wanna go home and sleep. But no. I have to wait till my dad gets off of work. I have to work on those fucking Calculus problems. ...I'm just tired. (Sorry about the whining. I really really hate being this whiny. It pisses me off.)

Mental Meltdown?

I think I'm having a bit of a meltdown. I don't know what it was about today, but twice (in the last 20 minutes) I have felt like spontaneously crying and I don't even know why. ...Okay, I kinda do. But it's not like today was uber stressful. Hell, my classes aren't all that crazy. ...Well, half of them. I only take four classes. But still. I'm always so exhausted. Although I do think that's the lack of sleep talking. *sighs* I don't remember the last time I got a decent eight hours sleep. My body's so used to four (which I might add is not my fault) that even on days when I can sleep more than four hours, it gives me only six. It's just... I'm so exhausted! Mentally and physically. And today, almost every little thing irritated me.

Calculus is tough. We all know this. I'm taking math as a major. Frig. I should be handle this. But when my professor gives an obscene amount of homework to in only one week. I think there's just a limit to how much one can do! In the next two days, I have about 30 pages of just PROBLEMS to do. And then I have a test the next Tuesday. And the tuesday after that. And then my FINAL is the tuesday after that. So in three weeks, I have three Calculus tests. And that doesn't even involve papers for my other classes. Yes, I know I have it much easier than some of the other schedules out there. But I need to whine. And I think after that, I'll be able to feel better... At least a little.

And then my parents don't make it any easier. I'm the one who can talk. So that apparently means I have to do every miscellaneous little task. I know they work. They both work so hard for me and my siblings and I know this. And I want to make it up to them in whatever way is possible. But I am just so tired of doing things that they could do themselves if they weren't so frigging lazy! I'm sorry, but I know your legs work. You can go down the stairs to grab your own bag! And yes, I know you're tired from work. But after you clock in those 8 to 4 hours, you can forget about work and go home and relax. I'm sure my older sister (WHO IS ALMOST 30, I SHOULD ADD) can take care of the house work just as well as you can. So just MAKE her and I think you could get more work. But for school. It's almost like it's 24/7. I know they haven't been in school for a while now, but seriously. Just because I'm not in class does not mean I'm not working on school stuff. After classes, there's homework and readings and papers and projects and I just want to break down and start crying now.

I hate that I'm acting so whiny. Because really, there's nothing to whine about. But today was tiring and I'm exhausted and I just wanna go home and sleep. But no. I have to wait till my dad gets off of work. I have to work on those fucking Calculus problems. ...I'm just tired. (Sorry about the whining. I really really hate being this whiny. It pisses me off.)