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[#97] Bored, I Am So Bored.
Dec. 24th, 2008 01:44 amRandom stream of consciousness:
+ I am so ridiculously bored. I don't know why I'm so bored. I could be doing lots of things--memes, writing, getting together that drama list that I continued working on. But no. I'm bored. Staring at the computer like it's nothing.
+ It doesn't feel like Christmas to me. I know Christmas Eve is tomorrow, but I feel like tomorrow is just going to be another lazy day where I should just stay home in my pajamas, sweatshirt and socks and stay under the covers and watch TV or watch dramas or chat or whatever I do everyday. Sometimes I don't even know myself. But, back to the point. I don't feel like it's Christmas. My mom agrees with me. We can't quite pin it down though. But it's really not feeling like Christmas. DDD:
+ I'm sleepy but I am refusing to go to sleep. I don't know why.
+ Sometimes, I think I'm so self-centered. Talking about myself all the time. Then I remember that hay, this is my LJ, what else am I going to talk about myself. I can't quite understand what the fly that hovers around my screen is saying, so since I can't talk about what he's thinking, I go with myself. Then I think I go overboard and then just... Tamika is a very paranoid female. ~_~;; (I am officially calling paranoid!Kamika, Tamika. Jennie, I blame you.)
+ I'm rambling. Do you guys get bored with my rambling? Sometimes, I think you do. Hell, I know I do.
+ I miss people. I was going through all my old posts and I feel like slowly, one by one, I've unraveled ties. I didn't mean to do it on purpose, but I know it's largely to do with me and how horrible I am sometimes. And how caught up I get. And then how weird I feel at trying to go back, like I have to relearn how to interact with people. I don't know. Some part of me wishes I could go back to the me that was a year ago, I was so much more interesting and active and funny. D:
+ You know, I just realized that these pluses are so misleading. Half these things aren't even really positives. lol WTF.
+ In the past day I wrote 6,000+ words. It's been a while since I've written fic and it was kinda nice to feel myself taken away by words and feelings and actions of people that I totally remember writing ages before. Or maybe not writing before. It was just like coming back home, or snuggling into freshly laundered sheets that you've used for years on end--they're kinda worn, but they've just been cleaned and it's like they're new and old all at the same time. ...If that makes sense.
+ Does this post even make sense?
+ I half feel like scrapping the entire thing, but heck, what's the point?
+ I WANT SOMEONE TO ENTERTAIN ME, DAMN IT. DANCE, COFFEE MAN. XD
+ Oh, and if someone wants to request holiday fic, the offer is still open. Go over here. One per person, please. So far, I have Peyton's and Jennie's left and I think I have an idea of what Jennie may like. She wasn't awfully specific (which, yes, dear, I still say you fail. But I will chalk it up to your exhaustion and not sleepingness). So far, I've managed to written Koyama/Yamapi (with Ryo, of course), fail!Tegoshi/Yamapi, Kame/Shige that got really long, and Tegomassuki. I'd make links but I'm slightly lazy. It's all on that post anyway. I'm sure it'll be easy to find. I swear.
+ I'm not sure how I feel about KAT-TUN maybe doing both Kame's theme song and Nakamaru/Massu's theme song. I said this on twitter, but it deserves repeating.
+ Oh whatever, this post is so discombobulated. I'll just end it here.
+ Arf.
+ I am so ridiculously bored. I don't know why I'm so bored. I could be doing lots of things--memes, writing, getting together that drama list that I continued working on. But no. I'm bored. Staring at the computer like it's nothing.
+ It doesn't feel like Christmas to me. I know Christmas Eve is tomorrow, but I feel like tomorrow is just going to be another lazy day where I should just stay home in my pajamas, sweatshirt and socks and stay under the covers and watch TV or watch dramas or chat or whatever I do everyday. Sometimes I don't even know myself. But, back to the point. I don't feel like it's Christmas. My mom agrees with me. We can't quite pin it down though. But it's really not feeling like Christmas. DDD:
+ I'm sleepy but I am refusing to go to sleep. I don't know why.
+ Sometimes, I think I'm so self-centered. Talking about myself all the time. Then I remember that hay, this is my LJ, what else am I going to talk about myself. I can't quite understand what the fly that hovers around my screen is saying, so since I can't talk about what he's thinking, I go with myself. Then I think I go overboard and then just... Tamika is a very paranoid female. ~_~;; (I am officially calling paranoid!Kamika, Tamika. Jennie, I blame you.)
+ I'm rambling. Do you guys get bored with my rambling? Sometimes, I think you do. Hell, I know I do.
+ I miss people. I was going through all my old posts and I feel like slowly, one by one, I've unraveled ties. I didn't mean to do it on purpose, but I know it's largely to do with me and how horrible I am sometimes. And how caught up I get. And then how weird I feel at trying to go back, like I have to relearn how to interact with people. I don't know. Some part of me wishes I could go back to the me that was a year ago, I was so much more interesting and active and funny. D:
+ You know, I just realized that these pluses are so misleading. Half these things aren't even really positives. lol WTF.
+ In the past day I wrote 6,000+ words. It's been a while since I've written fic and it was kinda nice to feel myself taken away by words and feelings and actions of people that I totally remember writing ages before. Or maybe not writing before. It was just like coming back home, or snuggling into freshly laundered sheets that you've used for years on end--they're kinda worn, but they've just been cleaned and it's like they're new and old all at the same time. ...If that makes sense.
+ Does this post even make sense?
+ I half feel like scrapping the entire thing, but heck, what's the point?
+ I WANT SOMEONE TO ENTERTAIN ME, DAMN IT. DANCE, COFFEE MAN. XD
+ Oh, and if someone wants to request holiday fic, the offer is still open. Go over here. One per person, please. So far, I have Peyton's and Jennie's left and I think I have an idea of what Jennie may like. She wasn't awfully specific (which, yes, dear, I still say you fail. But I will chalk it up to your exhaustion and not sleepingness). So far, I've managed to written Koyama/Yamapi (with Ryo, of course), fail!Tegoshi/Yamapi, Kame/Shige that got really long, and Tegomassuki. I'd make links but I'm slightly lazy. It's all on that post anyway. I'm sure it'll be easy to find. I swear.
+ I'm not sure how I feel about KAT-TUN maybe doing both Kame's theme song and Nakamaru/Massu's theme song. I said this on twitter, but it deserves repeating.
+ Oh whatever, this post is so discombobulated. I'll just end it here.
+ Arf.
