tinyangl | [#96] Some of These Happy Points are Days Old.

[#96] Some of These Happy Points are Days Old.

But I hope you guys don't mind me cheating. lolol

i. Happy stuff! :D
+ Last Friday, the 9 hour marathon Skype call with Jennie and Peyton. I still don't know how we spent so much time just babbling about who knows what. Although two hours of that were spent on Peyton on her pizza, from deciding if she should get it to the point when it was delivered. Another couple of hours spent talking fic - both

je_ficgames and

je_holiday. (Mainly Peyton and I spazzing to Jennie about all she's missed since she hasn't been reading fic.) I think all of us got phone calls from various people at some points (Peyton was miss popular). God, and I think they helped me try to solve a crossword puzzle. That I don't think I finished on that note. lolol
+ Peyton invited me to her place. "I have an empty bed for you." Bow-chika-wow-wow.
+ The episode Rashomama played on Friday. And that is, hands down, my favorite CSI episode of existence. If you watch CSI and have never seen this episode, you are so missing out. :DDD Pimpimpim.
+ I managed to convince Cyn and Jennie (although the second one was a joint effort with Peyton) to get twitters. Who rocks? :D (AKA, if you do not have a twitter. you should get one now. And then friend me. I'm tinyangl.)
+ Yamapi and V6 are going to be on VS Arashi. Who's ridiculously happy? I AM I AM. January 10th can't come any sooner. *____________*
+ Tegoshi wanting to be flawless. Total A+.
+ Tegoshi asking Yamapi to Karaoke straight out. Even more A+.
+ J-Friends' I Will Get There. If you've never heard it, you should now. Amazing fucking song.
+ Just Peyton in general. :D She knows why.
+ Toda Erika on Domoto Kyoudai. I didn't used to like her, but after Ryuusei no Kizuna and this interview, she's really growing on me. Also, Koichi's magic trick was fucking awesome. Making her birthday with the cards? DUDE. WHO DOES THAT?! Holy shit. Even if it's raw, everyone should watch just for that, honestly. It's worth it. *______________*
+ This picture of Okada, Morita, Miyake. Hysterical. Be warned, Okada's in his tightie whities. lololol
+ Subbed K-chan Episodes: 1 ♥ 2 ♥ 3 ♥ 4. All are absolutely hysterical. I totally recommend checking them out.
+ Getting my week of jesummary posted. :DDDD
+ Oh! Almost forgot. Grades are starting to trickle in. :DD A- for Grammar! Honestly? That's the only one that I thought would come close to a B (Granted, I don't know how Creative Writing prof will grade, so who knows). But hearing that it's an A makes me giddy. Maybe I'll be able to boost my average with this semester. Ridiculously happy.
+ I love my twitter. That is the only reason I have most of this list. lolol Looking back at my twitters so helps. XD

ii. Galileo Zero.
Finally managed to watch this despite downloading it ages ago. Ohmygod, so amazing. It only served to remind me that I really liked the drama and then I really wished that I saw Yukawa and Kaoru together again. Random points!

+ Yukawa being lecherous. Hysterical. I love the assistant trying to get girls to "play" with Yukawa but failing miserably.
+ The guy who plays Kusanagi. I'd seen him in a couple of other things, but for some reason, he was just really hot to me in this. I don't even know why.
+ I was genuinely surprised when I suddenly saw Masami show up. With her glasses and white coat. She thoroughly amused me though. Loved her interactions with Yukawa, trying to hit on him and convince him to stay by saying she had a really tiny bikini and then Yukawa going off on how it'd be great if girls wore bikinis to class. I was like WTF. LOL Also, love at the end when she leaves and he's babbling about love (as always) and she's like, he doesn't get it. Yukawa never did get a clue.
+ LOVED MIURA. Ohmygod. He had Yukawa down, honestly. I thought it was brilliantly acted and just all around amazing. ;alskdjlkasfjd I was honestly waiting for him to show up on screen and when he did, I flailed hard. :DDDD
+ The cases were good. I mean, I liked them but it's not like I can say much about them. lolol
+ This just made me want to find out what happens in the dman movie. Wantwantwant. alsdkjalfksjdf
+ OH. At the end of the special, we got a performance of Shibasaki Kou and Fukuyama Masaharu. SO BEAUTIFUL. OHMYGOD. I knew they performed together for this, but I'd never actually seen them together so seeing Fukuyama in the back with the guitar made me flail ridiculously.
+ Honestly, a good watch for those who saw Galileo before. And if you've never seen Galileo, what the heck are you doing reading this?! lol Seriously. Thoroughly enjoyed myself. :DDDDD Plus Miura = A+.
+ OH, random note. For a split second, Sailor Venus was one of the assistants. I was like OH HAY. LOOK WHO'S ON MY SCREEN! :D

iii. It's the holidays! I thought I'd be nice and offer up some of my writing (as terrible as it is). The last time I ask for prompts, I know I failed. DDD: Sorry. But this time, I have more free time (aka right now) so prompt me something to write for you! Granted, I have no promises for length, so it may range from one sentence to .....Well, let's not go there. lol So prompt away! :D No deadline that I can think of. Hopefully, I'll be better about this one. *dies*

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I was so impressed with Miura in the Galileo SP. I mean I happily admit to crushing on him and checking out everything he acts in, but he was genuinely awesome in it. Have you been following Bloody Monday? SO GOOD AMKSNDM.

Welcome to Heartbreak

--Kame/Shige. kJSK I know that this prompt just screams angst, lololol, but I can't get this damn song out of my head.

OH GOD. I LOST ALL OF IT (okay, HALF of it). DDD: MY FIRST TRY GOT LOST BY ACCIDENT. here we go again. hopefully it's as good as the first one. T.T I really liked it too.

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i. Verse 1.

Kame doesn't regret anything in his life, not that he would ever let himself. He worked hard to get where he was, made decisions that he was happy with and got him where he was now. He honestly had no qualms with what he'd done.

Except he didn't know when he turned around and realized that somehow in the span of five, ten, fifteen years, everyone had all grown up and expanded--wives, children, families. (Husbands, lovers, affairs, pets, houses.) He doesn't know if he wishes he had the same kind of thing himself, or if he just wished he suddenly didn't feel so lonely. Kame doesn't let himself think on this for too long.

"Hey, let's go out to drink tonight," Kame invites the others after a shooting of KAT-TUN IV Every1 (Their third reincarnation of their previous Cartoon KAT-TUN).

Jin and Koki wave to him from the door as they say that they're going home to their respective families. Junno apologizes, saying he had a tournament to get to that evening--his billiards career having taken off about six years ago. Ueda says that he has to get to bed, saying he has an early match the next morning--his boxing career having taken off more than eight years ago. And even though Kame looks at Nakamaru with a hint of plea in his eyes--something Kame doesn't do often--Nakamaru apologizes weakly, mumbling something about a date that evening.

Kame's suddenly realizes why he doesn't invite them out anymore.

ii. Chorus.

Kame's nursing a glass in his hands as he sighs, thinking that maybe he's gotten a little to old for this kind of life if he's already wanting to call it quits and just go home after only one glass. Kame shakes his head, refusing to think on it and drains the rest of his glass, asking for a refill. The bartender gives him a small smile, doing as he's asked and placing a glass of water to the right of Kame's drink.

Kame gives him a thankful smile before taking another sip of his drink, sighing.

"Kamenashi-kun?" the sudden and surprised voice asks from behind him. Kame turns to see Shige sliding into the chair next to him, eyebrows scrunched together in curiosity.

"Kato-kun," Kame returns, frowning. Last he remembered, Shige had a wife--young too, half Shige's age, something that hadn't been so openly accepted by the public. "What are you doing here?"

Shige chuckles, ordering his usual with the bartender--Kame wonders what it means that Shige actually has a usual. "I asked you first," he says easily, his drink already in his hands. Shige takes a drink and Kame watches as he swallows, grimacing slightly and then sighing.

"No, you didn't," Kame snorts. "All you said was my name and left it at that."

"It was implied," Shige returns, twirling his straw in his glass. Kame thinks the sound of ice hitting glass has never sounded so entrancing as it does then.

"I never took you as the type to avoid questions." Kame quirks his eyebrows at Shige who only laughs lightly, holding up his glass to Kame.

"There are many things you don't know about me, Kamenashi-kun," he replies, a twinge of bitterness in his voice as he turns to stare at a point in front of him. Kame blinks, then exhales.

He doesn't press the issue.

iii. Verse 2.

Kame doesn't go back the next night--mainly because the next morning told him what a bad idea the last evening had been. But he does show up the night after, and it says something when Kame already expects to see Shige's back facing him as he enters the bar.

The chime of the door alerts Shige and as soon as Kame enters, Shige's eyes catch his. He raises his already half-empty glass to Kame with a half nod and swallows the remaining contents.

Kame chuckles slightly as he shrugs out of his jacket, hooking it on one of the hooks near the front before sliding into the seat he used the last time he'd gone. "Already getting started?" he asks after he calls the bartender over, giving his order.

Shige smirks. "Not going to wait for people who show up late to the party." He clinks his glass against Kame's drink that had already appeared without giving Kame even enough time to breathe.

"Depends when the party starts," Kame points out, taking a sip and sighing.

"I guess mine starts earlier than most," Shige says, chuckling slightly. The edges of his eyes are downcast, Kame notes all of a sudden, and his cheeks are already red from all the alcohol--a red that's spread to the edges of his ears and over his nose. Kame suddenly wonders how early Shige's really talking about.

Another part of him remembers suddenly with clarity the controversy over Shige getting married to his much too young co-star--they'd seemed happy in every interview they'd given though, but Kame knew better than anyone how happiness looked just on the surface.

"You can ask, you know."

Kame blinks at Shige, startled. "What?"

"I do have a wife," Shige mumbles, his head dropping to stare into his newly filled glass like it'll give him all the answers and all the questions and just anything he thinks of.

Swallowing, Kame combs a hand through his hair. "Where is she?" Kame asks, trying to gather his thoughts together.

"Home," Shige replies with ease before taking a sip of his drink.

A beat. "Why aren't you home then?" Kame asks, after gathering much of his courage.

Shige turns to look at him, eyes filled with tears that wouldn't fall. "Because I'm not the one she's waiting for." He gives Kame a crooked and painful smile before cocking his head to the side, raising his glass up to Kame for the third time that night.

Kame stares and can't wipe the sight of Shige's face from his head for the next week (or two--Kame's lost track). A part of him is glad he's never fallen in love for this reason--for that moment when love just stops. He only wishes that he didn't suddenly feel so lonely when he actually thinks that.

iv. Chorus.

Kame falls into this routine of meeting Shige at the bar after work every night--no matter how late because more often than not, Shige's sitting at the bar, waiting for him with a filled glass of whatever he drank. So when Shige doesn't show up one evening, Kame feels so awkward sitting there by himself that when the bartender asks him--with this half-smile that looks more tinged with sadness than with glee--if he wants a refill, Kame refuses and leaves the bar without a second glance.

He hops on the train, his thoughts filled with how Shige's suddenly taken up a large part of his life--it's not a proper night until he's sitting with Shige talking about how the sky is blue to whether or not they regret becoming idols. His thoughts turn over in his head as the train lulls him to a slow and steady sleep.

Kame dreams of a life with Shige--not the life they have now, but a strangely domestic life with them living together (or at least that's what Kame figures). They move around in the kitchen, dressed in dorky aprons that have their names emblazoned across the front (Kame thinks it's a bit of a dorky idea, but most of him thinks that it was probably him who'd had the idea in the first place). Their knees knock against each other as they move from one side to the other, laughing as Shige stumbles and spills some flour onto the floor. Kame laughs until Shige thumbs a streak of flour on his cheek and that just calls for payback to Kame.

They're talking at the dinner table, smiles and laughter behind glasses of water--no need for alcohol in their lives after all--and plates that are piled with home-cooked food (when was the last time Kame had home-cooked food for that matter?) and more laughter that bounces off the walls and echoes in Kame's mind for days on end.

Kame dreams of Shige's breath against his, lips pressed against the others' and hands fumbling through layers of clothes. Shige's mumbling something under his breath and pressed against Kame's skin that Kame can't quite catch, doesn't know if it's really that important. Shige's hand darts underneath Kame's shirt and cold on warm practically burns against his skin--imprints a mark that only Kame can remember. Kame squeezes his eyes shut, trying so hard to keep feeling as alive as he does right now. He gasps, only in the dream, still in the dream, and throws back his head as Shige presses kisses down his throat.

It's only the train jerking to a stop at the end of the line that finally wakes up. Kame curses as he opens his eyes, realizing that he's far from his stop, too far from his stop. He sighs, shifting in his seat to get comfortable again and waiting for the train to start up again around to get home. He makes sure not to fall asleep, unsure of what he'd see behind his eyes, unsure if it was telling him what he wished for or what he wanted right now.

v. Bridge.

It's a week before Kame talks to Shige again, a week after Kame's last visit to the bar, a week after his dream. So when he picks up his phone to an unknown number--usually a bad idea in Kame's eyes--and finds Shige greeting him on the other end, it takes all of Kame's willpower not to hang up and pretend he hadn't heard Shige at all.

"Hey, Kamenashi-kun. I asked Yamashita-kun for your number. I hope you don't mind," Shige says with ease.

Kame closes his eyes, exhales, combs a hand through his hair before responding. "It's no problem, Kato-kun."

Shige chuckles on the other end. "I thought I told you to call me Shige."

"And I told you to call me Kame. See how well we follow orders," Kame jokes, heart thumping harshly in his chest. He's not sure why he's suddenly so nervous--no, he knows exactly why, but he doesn't know why he's taking his dream so seriously all of a sudden.

"I haven't seen you lately," Shige says; Kame can just imagine the frown on his lips as he does so.

Kame chuckles awkwardly. "Early mornings, gotta get my beauty sleep. You know how it is."

Shige laughs. "That's too bad! I miss having someone to talk to at the bar. It's kinda silly sitting there by myself just drinking."

"Haven't you been doing that for ages before?" Kame points out.

"And I felt silly back then. Nothing's changed." Kame can see Shige's crooked smile at this and somehow, that makes Kame's resolve break. He licks his lips.

"I don't know," Kame fumbles, trying to focus on an invisible speck in front of him that refuses to move, no matter how much he bats at the air.

Shige pauses on the other line. "Kamenashi-kun, did something happen? Did I do something?" There's a twinge of confusion in his voice that Kame doesn't blame him for having--Kame's a little confused himself.

"No, no you didn't," Kame finally says honestly--because it's the truth. It's all Kame, his paranoia, his confusion. He exhales. "I don't think I'll be going to the bar again." He tries to chuckle, but he wonders if it sounds as fake to Shige as it does to his own ears. "Too much alcohol, probably was a bad idea to go as often as I was."

"Oh," Shige says on the other line, voice catching. "Er. Okay, well, that's too bad, Kamenashi-kun. I was enjoying talking with you."

Kame licks his lips. "Yeah, to me too." There's a pause of awkward silence that makes Kame shut his eyes and exhale. "Listen, I have to get back to work. I'll, um. Later."

"Bye, Kamenashi-kun." Shige's voice is softer than Kame ever remembers. The ring tone echoes in his ear for another minute before Kame shuts his cell phone, his eyes catching his other members' eyes.

"What?" Kame snaps.

Jin gives him a soft smile, slightly sad. "Nothing," he says. A part of Kame wants him to expand on that, but he stamps down the desire and tells them that they should get back to work.

vi. Verse 3.

It's a couple of weeks before Kame suddenly realizes that all he's been doing is working, going home, sleeping, and then repeating the same thing the next day and then the next. Kame is at home, a bottle of beer in his hands and the imprint of his ass on his couch getting more and more defined. He feels really pathetic at this moment--lonely and craving for human interaction other than the usual people.

It's not as though staying away from Shige helped much of anything anyway. Kame still dreams of a life together with Shige, every night a possible scene of their life together--they range from something like just sitting down and fighting over the remote, to actual intimate scenes that Kame almost feels embarrassed for looking in on.

Each night though, the image of Shige gets fuzzier and fuzzier--like Kame's forgetting what Shige's like, what'd he say. Or maybe just the little stuff like the quirk of Shige's smile, the twinkle in his eye when Kame said something funny.

Kame curses himself in his head as he gets up off the couch, pulling on his jacket--thankful that he hadn't changed as soon as he'd gotten home. Without another thought, Kame makes his way to the bar at 1 in the morning, hoping that Shige will still be there, at the same time hoping that he won't be there.

He swings open the door and the bell chimes like it's always done before, and Kame sees a familiar back to him. Shige's talking animatedly to the bartender whose eyes quirk upwards when he sees Kame walk through the door.

The bartender nods in his direction and Kame freezes in his spot as Shige turns around slowly, his eyes meeting Kame's. Kame licks his lips as Shige's eyes light up with recognition, beaming as he stumbles off the stool and into Kame's arms.

"Kamenashi-kun!" Shige says bubbly, breath reeking of alcohol. "I didn't think I'd ever see you here again."

Kame chuckles awkwardly, leading Shige back to his seat and shouldering most of Shige's weight. "I didn't think I'd come back again," Kame says honestly.

Shige beams at him brightly, raising his glass to Kame. "A toast to Kame's return!"

Kame stares. "Haven't you drank enough already?"

"Never," Shige says with a chortle. "Not until after the divorce is finalized."

"What?" Kame starts, half choking around the sip he'd just taken. The alcohol burns twice as much on the way down.

Shige tilts his head to the side. "I didn't get to tell you, huh?" He laughs loudly. "I'm getting a divorce. Me. A Johnny's boy. Who thought something like this would ever happen."

"I--" Kame swallows hard. "But why?"

"I told you, didn't I, Kamenashi-kun? I wasn't the one she was waiting for at home." Shige throws back his head and Kame suddenly gets very vivid images of him kissing a line down his throat; Kame blinks.

"Oh."

Shige smiles at him, even his eyes are glimmering at this point. Kame wonders if he has enough self-restraint not to take Shige right now and just do what he's been dreaming of for weeks. Kame licks his lips. "So-" he starts.

Shige yawns exaggeratedly cutting Kame off completely, throwing his hand over his mouth and then stumbling off the stool. His other hand tugs on Kame's arm and he leans into Kame's grasp. "Ne," he murmurs. "Can I crash at your place? I think it's too late to go to Koyama's. His family's probably already asleep."

Kame's eyebrows furrow. "So why were you here so late?"

Shige chuckles, looking up at Kame. "Out of hope."

A beat before Kame gives Shige a shaky smile, hoping that with how close Shige is, he can't feeling the pound of Kame's heart. "Sure. You can crash at my place." Shige beams up at him and Kame thinks he had no real self-restraint to begin with.

vii. Chorus.

Of course they don't come together easily; it's not that Kame likes to complicate things, it's just that he thinks everything through--almost everything anyway. Shige has to go through his divorce first before he officially moves into Kame's, before Kame even thinks to make a move on Shige.

It's the second after Shige gets the phone call from his lawyer saying that he's a divorcee that Kame turns to Shige and presses his lips against his. When Kame pulls back, Shige sighs and shakes his head. "Took you long enough, you know."

Kame frowns. "Shut up, you weren't single till just now."

Quirking an eyebrow, Shige chuckles. "The things you focus on."

"The things you don't," Kame retorts, eyes burning a hole into the television in front of them. Shige leans against Kame's shoulder, a faint smile pressed against his shirt. Kame thinks suddenly that it's better late than never. He smiles again, his fingers tangling with Shige's.

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OH GOD, SARAH. I DON'T EVEN KNOW. AS;DLKFJASLDKFJAKLSDJ 1) I don't know why this is so damn long. 2) ;askdrjalskdjf That song is now on repeat on my computer and i blame you. 3) ...HOW IS THIS SO LONG. ~_~;; Hopefully you enjoyed.

Oh Kami. I've just woken up and this is the first thing I've seen in my inbox, so apologise for me taking so long to reply! I knew this would sort of ache when I gave you the prompt--the lyrics aren't exactly fluffy--but I love what you've done with this.
First; KAT-TUN in the future *___* I adore the idea of them being married and normal and having a life outside of JE--I think that's one of the reasons KAT-TUN are so fascinating to me, because they do have this entire life outside of JE (bar Jin to a certain extent) and everything about the first part made me go :D/:[ because Kame. Oh Kame. I love his desperation when he asked the other to go out with him, how incredibly lonely he is. And how he meets Shige in the bar and Shige's just as lonely as he is, he's just a little bit better at hiding it.

Second, the jasdjt the way you give us a little bit about their pasts, about who they are as people--Shige's marriage to a younger co-star, how she's having an affair, Kame and the dreams. And the dreams. Oh the dreams. So dorky and domestic and Kame. He's such a dork Kami and you really bought this through.

AND THE ENDING!!! OH MY GOD THE ENDING. I thought it would end tragically because you had Kame telling Shige he wasn't going back to the bar, but then Kame goes back and they kiss and jansjd it’s so normal *____*

Really Kami, you spoil me. I really adored this, really, really so. Thank you for writing it for me <3

Oh, and do you want the Kanye West album? I dl it the other day :D

ohmygod, yes, can i get it? or at least just this song (is the entire album as great as it? because then i'll ask for the entire thing. as;dlkjaskldfjlkj it's just so fucking addictive.)

I am SO GLAD YOU LIKED THIS. I really just. asldkjraklsdj I love your comments on this. I really liked this actually, and i'm more than pleased that you liked it and i'm more than happy to have written it for you!!! :DDD ♥♥

Of course! It's a really good album :) Here you go.

YES I DID!! ksdjfk I'm so pleased you didn't think it was inane and rambly, lol. Thank you so much for writing it for me ♥ ♥ ♥

thank you for prompting ~♥
i love this pairing ♥

thank you so much~
i'm so happy reading it!!! i always want kameXshige fic but i want it beautifully written. so beautiful.. omg and you wrote it .. and THIS IS BEYOND BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! *cries happily* i even couldn't express how much i love this and how much love you for writing it ~♥
thank you...

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[#96] Some of These Happy Points are Days Old.

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i know this is going to be long omg.

AHAHAH I'M LAUGHING TO MYSELF. PART 2

OH GOD. PART 3

OH YAY. PART 4. OF HOW MANY. DDD:

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