[#140] Crying.

i. I was selected to be a juror. This is, hands down, the worst timing in the fucking world. Normally, I'd be like, okay, I get paid, I don't have to do work--just listen to a (potentially boring) case. But my actual work is fucking busy right now. I can't get into specifics, ofc, but we're working on condensing two floors into just one, and only have about (roughly) a month to do this. SO. now is seriously not the time. but what the fuck can i do now, huh? so yeah, this is the worst timing. Although I was just thinking to myself, how long do these trials last in a day? because maybe after it, i can go straight to work, work a couple of hours to catch up on WHATEVER and get it done, then it won't be as jarring when i come back--whenever that'll be--and the shit that needs to get done WILL. >.>

ii. I don't have a point 2. all my life has been taken up by jury duty and worrying about work. :////

iii. Tomorrow I'm going to NYC's summer streets. hopefully it won't rain. >.>

I'M BORING. I KNOW. D: i just am sick of august. can we be in october already? I'M GOING TO LAS VEGAS IN OCTOBER. let's fastforward, okay?

[#141] Been aggravated all day

I have been grumpy all fucking day. What's weird is that nothing in particular has really pissed me off--like nothing ridiculous actually happened, but something about today, I have been nothing but scowly. It's rather fucking annoying when someone asks me if I'm okay because I haven't looked happy. Which I don't know. Just. argh. I feel like it's just been this month. Like everything just happened in this one month and I have been nonstop busy for this whole month. I don't even know. I would really like life to take a big pause. Like now would be nice. If possible. Thanks. ://///

P.S. I think I need to get away from this household. It's also part of the reason I've just been so aggravated. Like, all my staying over at the apt has just made me unused to the treatment I get here and whenever I come, I just get so annoyed at how reliant they are on me, and how this wears me down and how I constantly wonder how my parents would be able to handle if I was gone for more than a few weeks. I want to be out. Maybe I'm just restless.

P.P.S. Been watching Innuendo Bingo videos because it makes me happy. Here's some videos for everyone!!!! *____________*

And these are just the ones with Rhianna/Chris Stark. (P.S.--can you ps within another ps?--I totally have a crush on Chris. He's adorable. ♥)
(and as i was writing this, just watched Danisnotonfire vs. Amazingphil WHICH WAS FABULOUS. Would have embeded, but I thought that would get obnoxious. Phil was the best.)